I am struggling.
There. I said it.
Yes, I'm middle-aged. Yes, I have kids. Yes, I have an aging parent who has health issues. Yes, I'm building a house. (shhhhhh: yes I'm perimenopausal).
But it's not just that (just! Ha!).
I want to help people. I LIKE helping people. I like learning. I like trying new things. And I feel compelled to add new skills to my CV/resume.
Which is to say.... hello burnout. Again. Sigh.
So I'm taking break. Again (but the money Trisha, what about the money? Don't your family depend on you? (Don't think about it! Denial is a strategy that totally works)).
Gradle have been understanding, kind, and supportive, and have granted me some leave so I can get my shit together rest and recharge.
Burnout is a complex beast. It could easily be triggered by all the (non-negligible) non-work stuff I have going on. It might also be a sign that I'm not investing my energies in things that fulfil me. Or I might just have too much to deal with. Regardless of the root cause, I'm going to take a couple of months or so to:
- rest
- recharge
- think
- feel
- finish the
fucblostudream house
Hopefully, that will give me a little space and time to remember who I am, realise what I want, and give me that tiny mote of inspiration to direct me.
Support welcome. Particularly if you want to tell me what I'm good at, how I've inspired you, or where you think my talents will work best.
